Normally for anyone visiting my website, you would expect to get a perspective of the mirrors I have made, astronomy activities I do, etc. Well, not so…I’m actually reaching out to the world to tell a little bit about myself, hoping this will allow me not to fall into the deep abyss I was in for 367 days of 2012 and 2013. That being in the ranks of the unemployed. Many people my age, in their mid fifties have been unemployed before, but I feel like I am unique, only because with my profession, experience and accomplishments, you would think this would never happen. You see, I am a registered professional engineer in Texas and California, and I have worked in industry and consulting for 37 years. I have a great wealth of knowledge, expertise, skill and business experience and I have dealt with extremely complex problems and situations and have found innovative solutions. I have found ways to make corporations hundreds of millions of dollars, and yes that’s right, no typo, hundreds of millions and yet my existence seems to be gradually shrinking in significance. You see, I know what it is like to be tested, under the gun of a hundred eyes, staring, waiting to hear your words, your solutions, your answer. This is unique, it’s stress that feels overwhelming and at the same time exhilarating, only because you are in control, you have the authority and power to decide, to judge, to be respected, to lead, to be followed. Ok, I will get off my high horse…and that’s my point, I’ve learned to accept and meet and defeat any problem or challenge beset me….and have done this countless times before…but there is one thing that I have never feared before….one that I have never experienced before and one that has created more doubt than ever before….one where I and my family will lose every single object, comfort, space, security, hope or sanity…unless somehow…I find someone who finds me, and my value, and what I have done..and can do…and my value…..and what I can do….